Its getting easier these days, I find myself waking up and he's not the first thing on my mind.
For that I am grateful!
Before I would be consumed with thoughts of him and that was no bueno!
He'd be the first thing on my mind, I would go on facebook just to look at his face and do the same thing at work and at night.
Was I obssessed.. NO.
I juust loved him that much that is being apart, us not talking, us not seeing each other for months on end bothered me. I was stressed and angry a lot and just being with him for a few hours or looking at a pic of him for a few minutes, helped relieve that.
I was using him as a crutch and that was not good.
Me needing him like that when he didn't feel the same or need me in that was not good. Me realizing how much I was puuting into him without getting nothing in return made me back off and try to shut off my emotions.
For a while it was OK, I backed off on texting him cause short one worded convos were not cool. Like I said we'd go weeks to months not talking. We’re both working and busy, so that wasn't too much of a stretch.
But I did cave a few times and he surprised me in contacting me.
And now... I'm off facebook, I deleted his pictures from my phone, I haven't deleted him or old text messages yet from my phone or laptop.
But I'll get there.. .eventually.