Poem: Unsaid Words

I am silent,
cause you give me
no reason
to speak

You are silent
because
you have no words to say

I am stifled
under the words that
threaten
to break free

You are ignorant
to your unseen hold
on my tongue

I am baffled
at your inability to see
Me...
waiting

And you,
you are
....well, its too late now
I am gone.

Quick Update: On My Unexpected news

This hematoma hurts like a mf!! 

And i dont know if this nausea is a side effect (yes that is Pain from Naruto felt like it was called for)but nope, 

pineapples! 


i dont want it!
(This shit is tryna fuck me over!)


needed some humor>>>>


That is all! And i swear it cause my appointment is next week that it wants to act up cause it wasnt bothering all last week! This mother Fudge nugget! (yea i cursed!)

Le sigh...

For those of you that are new and have no idea what im talking about... read this  if not then i have a bruised, enlarged ovary that has a hematoma on it. how the fuck it got there i will never know but its been a few years and shit is getting crazy! i cant take the pain anymore (like crippling im-on-the-floor-crying-i-need-to-call-out-of-work-give-me-morphine type pain)

It shall soon be taaken care of.. AMEN!

And with that i bid you adieu, bonne nuit!

Face Time: Simple Makeup Look

Alright, So i decided that i will try to get back into my makeups this year. Dont get me wrong i love my natural look and most of the time im too lazy to remember to do makeup or even  a full face all the time (even though i m not into the contouring shit that people too which looks pretty cool.. #aintnobodygottimeforthat!) Im just gonna get back into my eye makeup and broaden my lipsticks colors.

So what i have here is an eye pencil (white...$0.99) and lip pencil (coffee...$0.99) and mascara (Black...$1.99) from NK cosmetics (beauty supply story find.. spent no more than $5 for all three). NYX matte black eye liner of the noir eye liner collection (got it from Rickys... $6). Rouge cream lipstick magnetism 27 ($12.50) and Tarte Amazonian Clay waterproof concealer in deep ($22) from Sephora.

What i did what use the white eye liner in the corner of my eyes, followed with the matte black eye liner for top and bottom lids. I used the tarte concealer under my eyes and the few dark spots around my face (need to find a good fade cream fro those). Then mascara. I lined my lips with the brown lip liner and then followed with the lipstick. 

I was going for a simple nude look, nothing special since im gonna be stuck in my office all day. And im not trying to look pretty for anyone (not even the Nephew that im talking to now)

Oh wanna know why i used the white in the corner (next time getting a cream one).. well was i on YT (yup and thats how shit gets started!) and saw this video and was like oh cool, i wanna try that. and there it goes lol

But let me know what you think.

A.Soul

Face Time: Proper Use of Clay Mask

Ask me why i started looking clay mask and whether or not you have to wash/scrub your face beforehand... i will not be able to tell you.

But i stocked up on my freeman Feeling Beautiful Purifying Acai Clay Mask (ultimate fav) and i was just about to use it but i havent washed my face since Thursday (gross i know, but i left my house once for a meeting at a friends house so it really didnt matter much to me)

Any who.. leaving my gross habits alone. I couldnt remember if it was scrub before you cleanse and then mask, or mask then cleanse or, cleanse then scrub then mask...

Why am i putting my face through all this you ask.. did you not read, i have not washed my face since Thursday! Thats 3 days of dead skin and clogged pores built up on my face.Ewww ( and yes i will continue being this lazy with my skin when im not going out on long weekends).

But i came across this article on the proper use of clay masks here which a facialist said

"You should never let a clay mask dry fully." 

Her reasoning is that

 "There are three phases of a clay mask," McGlinchey continued. "There's the damp phase where your skin drinks in the beneficial minerals from the outside. Then you have the start of the dry phase, which exercises your capillaries and stimulates blood flow as the mask cools and contracts. But then there's the dry phase, which draws out moisture from the surface of your skin, causing dehydration and irritation." Not only does skin then feel dry, tight, and sometimes itchy, but when you counteract it by slathering on extra face cream, you're just smothering your freshly cleansed skin.

Huh... well now i know.

Masks stay on for the 5-7 minutes and no later than that.

Oh and the answer to my question is here Cleanse, Exfoliate, Mask, Toner (if needed), and then Moisturize (obviously)... well if you're in a facial need like me.

and you guys already know my skin care products.

• Cleanser: Carols Daughter cleanser, 
• Exfoliator: either st. ives apricot scrub or the freeman polishing mask,
• Mask: the freeman purifying clay mask, 
• Toner: carols daughter exfoliating toner, 
• Moisturizer: Carols Daughter acai face lotion or organic shea butter 

Other than that this isn't necessary for every day. 

Cleanse daily, Exfoliate 2-3x/week, Mask 1-2x/week at most and, Moisturize daily

What are your skin care product faves?

A.Soul

Protective Style:: Box Braids: Maintenance & Wash Day

So its been 4 weeks since ive had these box braids in (my mommy did them for me!) And ive been treating them so poorly. The first week or two i was tying it every night, spraying it with the Alikay Naturals leave in, massaging in my oils... and now its just like i cant bother with it.

The first and third week i treated it to a dry wash with my ACV spray. Last week there was also some shampoo used (Shea Moisture Raw Shea Moisture Retention Shampoo), and i used a wash rag to get into btween the braids after rinsing them with some water. I was only focused on my scalp and not the mength of the hair.

today i really shampooed and conditioned cause it was needed.

1. i sprayed my scap with the ACV spray and gently rubbed it in to help alleviate the build up accrued. In it i have water, acv, tea tree, rosemary and peppermint
2. i rinsed using my applicator bottle ( then filling my applicator bottle about halfway with luscious locks shea butter shampoo. again focusing on my scalp i sprayed it on gently rubbing so as not to irritate it. then i rinsed with warm water. 
3. i filled a small spray bottle with water and herbal essences hello hydration conditioner and sprayed my scalp and the length of my actual hair on the braids. After i felt that i saturated it enough i poured the rest of mixture in and let it sit for about 5 minutes while i worked it into my scalp, again gently rubbing before rinsing with cool water. Always do your final rinse with cool to cold water.
4. lastly i took my rag and went in between the parts to get any lasting shampoo or conditioner that may have been left behind. i towel dried my hair (yea yea bad girl... ill get a microfiber towel for the next wash day) and went off to moisturize
5. i sprayed with the leave and oiled my scalp and hair. I oiled my scalp directly and then pouring some oils into my hands and rubbing it along the lengths of my hair. i saw this done in Jenell's video and she said that since that part of the hair was older and still exposed in someway despite being in a protective style it still needed to be moisturized as well. I thought about taking it a step further and finishing but with a C but that was too much

There was no set way in how i washed it. At one point it was all down (like the chick from the grudge) while i sprayed it. another point it was all in my fist stretched away from my head while i rinsed it witrh the applicator bottle sans spout. i was not trying to get it all wet since i had somewhere tp go later and had no dryer at home.

Funny how im trying to take care of my braids in the last two weeks when i havent been doing so well to begin with. All i know is i wont be doing box braids again. ill stick to twists (Marley, Havana, Senegalese, yarn) and loc extensions, 

Oooooh and i measured my new growth (like i really sat down at my desk at work with a ruler measuring it) but any who i measured 1 in. of growth in the four weeks that iv had the braids in.

But yea my wash routine all without completely soaking my hair all the way through. Simple for these short term styles nad not you know months at a time (which i cannot do). All i know is im starting to miss my fro but in this cold ass NYC weather im good rocking it out only for a week or two at a time, well now at least.

Whats your protective style(s) for the winter or cold weather months?

A.Soul

Face Time: Freeman Mask

I got into the Freeman Masks after watching Jenell of KinkyCurlCoilyMe on IG and again with Sunshine of Sunshines Natural & loving it. After hearing them rave about it i decided to go research and look for the ones that would work best with my skin.

I have combination/oily skin. Like when i wake up my face is dry but after cleansing and throughout the day it gets really oily so much so that it bothers my eyes a lot. Hence why i stopped wearing makeup (among other reasons) since i would always be rubbing my eyes. I did start blotting throughout the day but i needed something in my skin care line that would help. 

As you all know from my last face time post with the ACV and ABS mishap, i switched to Carols Daughter Acai Clarifying line. After a trying it in one of their workshops and seeing the immediate effects that ti had on my skin. I was hooked. I bought the line and was impressed with the results. And combined with the Freeman Purifying Acai clay mask my skin was in heaven. i love the light berry scent of the clay mask and the fact that it goes on really smooth. It doesnt over dry or irritate my skin. And i highly recommend it to others with really oily skin like myself.


Recently stopping into a beauty supply store i say the Freeman Feeling Beautiful Polishing mask, made with Charcoal and Black Sugar. I was like oh shit they have it. I first heard about it when i bought my first set of clay mask and it was still in the promotional phase. So i was like heck yea $5 well spent with this buy!

And it was.

This mask is a dual one. Its a mask but works as a scrub as well. Now if any of you have tried a brown sugar scrub with the large crystals then you know its a bit of a pain to rub in. But this not so much. You smooth it on first, leave for 5-7 minutes and then scrub it in before washing off with cool water. Unlike with other masks or scrubs you dont have to worry about missing any spots since the sugar dissolves  once the water touches it.

When i say i love this mask. I pretty much use it almost everyday! Its that good. With these three products my skin is brighter - has a bit of a glow to it, less oily, and smooth =)

Have you tried and Freeman masks? If so, whats you're favorite?

A.Soul

Urban Decay Naked Palette Giveaways

Now im not really big on wearing makeup... at least in the everyday but i did start off that way during my freshman year of college. it was just eye shadow then. then it switched up into using eye liner and finally mascara. after a while it died down on the eye shadow and them it was just mascara and eye liner. i did a fashion show at my school once and we had to bring in our own makeup. so i went to sephora bought Korres liquid foundation (which seems to have been discontinued!) and learned how to apply it myself for futre reference. After a while i just stopped altogether wearing makeup. only bringing it out for special occasions. like new years, weddings, photo shoots, and some parties/events. last year i got into lipsticks; some pinks, reds, purples, and browns. i stick with those colors. i like to make my attractive features pop such as my eyes and lips.

The reason why im bringing this up is that i came across a few giveaways for the urban decay naked palettes a few days ago. I like the palettes although im more for darker colors i love neutral tones as well.



1. Confessions of a Shopaholic: http://confessionsofasecretshopper.blogspot.com/2014/01/giveaway-urban-decay-naked-3-palette.html
my only thing with this is that she asks for way too much shit in the rafflecopter. im good with following on google, fb, ig, twitter n subscribing but everything else!... c'mon chick be reasonable!

2. Catherines Loves http://www.catherinesloves.co.uk/2013/12/urban-decay-naked-3-palette-giveaway.html Hers is reasonable for the rafflecopter, simple and all the shit i already use!

3. Lana Loves That: http://www.lanalovesthat.com/2014/01/urban-decay-naked-palette-12-or-3.html hers i actually promoted on tumblr since she was looking for 100 subscribers on YT before the giveaway could start. And shes not just giving away NP3, but palettes 1 &2 as well!



4. Elle  Sees: http://ellesees.blogspot.com/2013/12/urban-decay-naked-palette-3-giveaway.html The one giveaway where im not signed into twitter everyday for more entries lol

5. Almost forgot about this one International Collaboration Giveaway http://linkis.com/glitterandgorgeous.com/SMC8 only cause its another one that asks for an arm and leg in entries

6. And heres another: From Beauty Fiends: http://www.beautyfiends.net/urban-decay-naked-3-review-giveaway/ 

Although im not big on makeup my mom is and im mostly trying for her, But im slowly getting back into wearing it myself. but if anyone is interested in winning join in.

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"Say Something, I'm Giving Up on You..."

I think its a sign! Having Pandora play and this song randomly comes on

"Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I'll be the one, if you want me to.

Anywhere, I would've followed you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I am feeling so small.

It was over my head

I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall.

I'm still learning to love

Just starting to crawl.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.

Anywhere, I would've followed you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I will swallow my pride.

You're the one that I love

And I'm saying goodbye.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.

And anywhere, I would have followed you.

Oh-oh-oh-oh say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

Say something..."

Now for all of you trying to let someone go, and they are making no effort for you to stay, this song says a lot. 

I think i'll leave it on repeat for while.. Josue, im giving up on you, say something

Photo Challenge & Giveaway

Technically started yesterday but it didnt really occur to me to post and share with you guys.

But as you can see Tribe Called Curl (@tribecalledcurl) & Karen's Body Beautiful (@KarensBeautiful) is teaming up for the month of January for this giveaway. Each week there will be winners, who will receive a KBB product. And also at the end of the photo challenge, once lucky winner will win a years supply off KBB products!

Now who can so no to that!

So all you IG'ers out there join the #TribeBeautiful photo challenge

2014: NO RESOLUTIONS

I dont need resolutions for the new year, i know what im doing, how im going to go about doing it, and what i want to achieve in the end. 

I know i have character flaws but I've been  working on them all my life since i've acknowledged them and i will continue doing so as i get older. 

I'm working on growing as a person and achieving my dreams, i don't need resolutions just aspirations and goals.

Maybe you need a visual for what those goals are.. create a vision board. As i've seen with curls and mo & love brown sugar... these boards are helping you to see what you want to change for the new year.

I dont really care for them but they are useful. I just know ill end up getting lazy after a whiel and get back into my sedentary ways. So thats why im not making anything concrete. Im just gonna continue working in my own way towards my own fulfillment.

One thing is for sure. This money challenge will be conquered for 2014! Ill be working in reverse this time around lol