Poem: Emotional Distance II

I am at an emotional standstill

i feel and then i do not
i am cautious yet uncaring
i am aloof and naive
yet alert and aware
i want it but then i don't
i am there but then i'm not
im ready but still so ill prepared

'we' are, then, its 'you and i'
separate but together
sometimes 'we', sometimes 'him and her'

what are we?
but a nameless couple, inches apart
parallel with curves
away from each other
towards each other
intersecting at the right point
within us
and others

i want us to blend into one line
to shade imperfectly
not outshining
but complimenting

i want it but then i dont
i want you, sometimes us, sometimes we
but
then i dont
i dont know where we are
what we are
if i should continue to feel
this
when i want to feel so much more
but
then
i dont

i am compromised
in my emotions
and i dont know where to go

i, am at
an
emotional
standstill

KCB.