Poem: .... in my head

i fear the future
only because
of my uneasiness in the present
my insecurities rear their ugly heads
and my inadequacies known

i am not consise in my wants

my own desires contradict themselves
but the knowledge is there
its in the basic structure
there are only complexities in the design

how do i fare on a daily basis
when my mind wanders far and wide
away from the goals i set myself
away from what i think i want
from where i think i should be

i hide in the comfort of my everyday

i hide because it is easy

i dont want to be scared anymore
i want to.confront my fears
i.want to face my heart
i want to make myself known
to myself

i just dont know the steps i should take...